Currently Reading

This section is where I'll be sharing a new book that I've read each month, how it's impacted me, what I like & dislike about it & everything in between. I'm definitely a person who gravitates towards autobiographies. I love a true story that can really pull me in & take me somewhere else. There is nothing like a true story that explains the toughest moments off peoples lives, how they've coped in healthy/unhealthy ways, the wisdom they come out off it with & how they have overcome it or acknowledged the challenges they've faced, is absolutely breathtaking to me! To be able to read a persons life from first hand experience is magnificent.

I have purchased books that are research based, educational, travel related etc but for some reason I never get stuck into those ones like I do with the autobiographies. I feel like I transcend into another realm. I step into the life I'm reading about; I can see it in my third eye. Right at my face.

DECEMBER;;

So anyway, I guess it's time to share what book I've read this month!

This months read was by Jennette McCurdy and it is called "I'm glad my mum died", just like you the heading is what grabbed my attention. It made me so curious as to why she would be glad her mum was dead.

On some level I'm glad that my mum died also, it feels harsh to say that but if you knew you'd know.

So of course this book grabbed my attention!

This book took a toll on me mentally & emotionally, it took me for a rollercoaster ride. I felt like I was physically with young Jennette, every step of the way that she was telling her story in this book. It brought up a bit of trauma for myself and with the timing of certain things in my own life it made the book that little bit more emotional for me. Although this book gave me the momentum to push myself a little bit in reconnecting with my father & for that I'm grateful.

This book is about Jennette's reactive, emotionally manipulative, emotionally & physically abusive mother, who she put on a pedastule. Jennette catered to all off her mothers wants & needs from the age off 4 up till the moment her mother passed away. If you have a parent like this or have experienced trauma befor/during the passing off a parent I highly recommend having support around you while you read this book as it may be quite triggering for any individual. It is also about the toxicity off being a child star in L.A & what it's like having no form off control over your own life.

I think Jennette's way of writing is so simplistic and beautiful that it keeps you engaged the entire time throughout the book, she gets straight to the point she's making. No time to fuck around.

She mentions how she's changed in certain ways since her mum has passed & that she knows she'll have these certain traits forever now, without her explaining in what ways she has changed I feel like I can relate in my own way just by noticing the way she writes. Even though she has jokes & lighthearted moments throughout her story, to me, in comparison to other books, it is quite a serious read and I feel like I've become quite a serious person since my mum passed away. Maybe that's the effect it has on us human children when a parent dies. It takes a part off our childlike joy, forever? I hope not.

I had a very hard time putting this god damn book down! Each time I would put it down, even when it was finished, I wanted to pick it up & keep going!

Jennette keeps the story moving with momentum, challenges & her overcoming those challenges.

I am extremely inspired by this woman and look up to her highly after reading her story.

To see someone else come out the other side of this practically an orphan is just amazing and extremely helpful for me and my journey through life, especially coming into adulthood without your paternal parents for guidance, just like her.

I am in awe off this young women & hope all the best for her in her life no matter where it takes her! As long as she is happy.

~ Sarah xo